I’m "going about as fer as I can go"
14 Nov 2007 1 Comment
in L'il Ole Me
Well, after a long, uncomfortable fall it looks like Wes and I have resolved where we’ll be in the New Year. If you’re familiar with musicals, you’ll recognize the title of this post as a song from the musical Oklahoma entitled Kansas City. I have a lot of emotions about this.
First of all I am relieved that we have pretty much come to a decision of what our future holds, mostly because I hate uncertainty. I am also excited that we will get to begin our life together (living together in the same city) and in a place that won’t be as financially taxing as Los Angeles.
I am also frustrated that I couldn’t make it work here in LA, sad that I am going to have to leave my family and friends, and really unsure how well I am going to do 1500 miles away from my support network.
I do, however, feel that this is the right move for Wes and me to be making right now. I’m already drowning financially in Los Angeles, and we need to be in a place where we can afford to start our life together. Wes has received a wonderful offer from a firm in Kansas City, an offer that will give me a little time to figure out exactly what it is I want to do and find the right job. It certainly isn’t my first choice of places to live, but we have decided to give it a few years and see how it goes.
Current plans have him slated to start towards the end of January, and I’m aiming to be out of here around the same time. I’m still negotiating breaking my lease, and figuring out how to get all my belongings from here to there. Let’s hope there are some great yarn stores in Kansas City because I have a feeling I’m in for some serious knitting and I’m going to need lots of warm sweaters!
Boneheaded.
24 Oct 2007 Leave a Comment
in Fabulous Friends, L'il Ole Me
So I pulled a bonehead move this weekend and left my cell phone charger plugged into the wall in San Jose. Of course I figured this out somewhere in the middle of the Grapevine (about 4.5 hours into my drive home) when I noticed my phone was going to be deader than a doornail soon and I needed the charger. Luckily my friend sent it to me right away and the USPS didn’t lose it (they care you know!).
My phone died sometime yesterday, not only reminding me of the Hannukah Miracle, but also making me wonder what we did before cell phones. I have a land line at home, but I rarely use it, so my cell is my primary means of communication. For the past few days I’ve felt untethered, disconnected and slightly off. While I am a little saddened by this intense need for communication and a small device I lived completely without just a few short years ago, I am also thankful that we have come so far technologically so that I can keep in close contact with my friends and family over ever increasing distances.
Processing
19 Oct 2007 2 Comments
in Fabulous Friends, L'il Ole Me
My processing speeds seems to be down a bit lately. I experienced the following today and I am not sure what to make of any of them:
* Despite being told I have no leadership skills and am not qualified to be promoted, the Exec Director dropped my name several times today during the staff meeting – mostly praise for helping with our website redesign, bring BIG new business to the organization, and representing our interests on campus. This is simultaneously good for the self esteem (clearly I am having an impact) and yet another blow (actions speak louder than words, and so far there are no actions).
* My intended found his dream job today. It’s a great opportunity and his eyes lit up as he told me about it. I’m so happy for him and I love him so much and want this for him with every fiber of my being. The job is in Omaha. I have no idea what I will do in Omaha.
* I am heading north this weekend to the Bay area. The primary purpose of this trip is to attend one of my best friend’s baby shower. This is the first one of my friends to have a baby. I am ecstatic for her. I am also loving planning my wedding. I know that life is not a race, but I feel behind somehow. Not that I’m ready for children at this point in my life. While in the Bay area, I will also catch up with a group of friends with which I was very close in college and immediately thereafter, but haven’t seen in two years.
The feeble brain
16 Oct 2007 Leave a Comment
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I had this great idea for a post. And then I forgot it. The End.
No seriously, this is the 6th time this has happened to me today and I’m starting to feel old. I’m not even 30 yet, and already I can’t remember what I want to say or do from one minute to the next. My life may be only a third over and I have no idea what is going on. So until the idea returns, this is all I’ve got. Nothing to see here… just keep moving along folks.
*wonders if her mind fell out under the couch last night*
P.S. Yes my brain strongly resembles whacked-out green broccoli with eyes.
I knit.
10 Oct 2007 1 Comment
in Deep Thoughts, Knitting Content Ahead, L'il Ole Me
In this world there are two kinds of knitters: process and product. Process knitters knit to enjoy the process of creating something. They knit to learn new techniques, to master their craft. The act of knitting is a journey to them, and it is where they find most of their enjoyment, be it learning new things, enjoying the company and wisdom of others, or simply finding new modes of self expression. I knit for all of these reasons, but I am not a process knitter.
The product knitter has the end goal in mind: the finished piece. The product knitter enjoys the act of knitting, but is always striving to complete things for the end product. Whether it be to wear the finished garment oneself, give it as a gift or share it with others, the product knitter wants to go through the journey for the end prize. I am a product knitter.
This shouldn’t surprise me. I knit to be creative. I knit because I have passion, and a love of color and creating things. I knit because I have free time and because I like to see things take shape before my eyes. I knit because it is one of the few things in my life I can control. I can choose the pattern (or not to go with one at all), the colors, what I make, how fast I make it, and who gets the end product. I knit because these days, it seems it is one of the few things I can excel at.
So it should come as no surprise to me that this month, when things are most out of control and uncertain, that knitting has become essential to my emotional well being. Or that I was almost undone tonight by a sock.
A week or so ago, I decided to dedicate this month to knitting socks and finishing up projects on the needles. A sock is a quick project – a pair takes me a week. Most of the projects that are on the needles are well near the finish line, I just haven’t given each enough time to get it there. Clearly, because I am in limbo in the rest of my life, I want all my products lined up neatly in a row.
So when I started a new sock last night, I was dismayed, and almost undone by the fact that I had to rip this yarn three times and start over. The first two times were attempts at patterns that were entirely too large for my foot – no one seems to write sock patterns for size 6. Sometimes I can adjust the pattern, sometimes I can’t. I finally decided on a pattern late last night and set off with gusto through the cuff, ignoring my mistakes in the second row. Tonight I started the leg when I realized that something had gone wrong, nothing was aligning and I needed to pull it out yet again.
I’ll be fine tomorrow. I’m even feeling better writing this, but I understand why I needed this to work and why I need to get to the finished sock. Now please excuse me while I go pray to the Patron Saint of Socks.
Things I might hate myself for in the morning.
10 Sep 2007 3 Comments
in L'il Ole Me
1. I REALLY want a pair of crocs.
They are the ugliest shoes I may ever have seen. They are plastic. And they are SO comfortable.
I tried on a co-workers last week and I may be hooked. And look at the cute Mary Jane’s that will show off all my beautiful knitted socks. AND they are antibacterial so if you have sweaty feet, and I do (oh the romance!), your shoes won’t smell.
BUT, I might have to shoot myself… a little.
My Summer Vacation
04 Sep 2007 Leave a Comment
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I thought I had posted enough about the Bahamas, but I was wrong… Wes sent me these yesterday. 
Things that make me happy.
04 Sep 2007 Leave a Comment
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1. Nice man friend at work brings flowers for every girl. Beautiful roses in an assortment of colors to pick from. Smell yummy!
2. Take lousy picture with camera phone.
3. Remember real camera tomorrow!
Simpsonize me.
23 Aug 2007 Leave a Comment
in L'il Ole Me, Let's All Go to the Movies, The Boob Tube
Even though I don’t watch the tv show much and didn’t see the movie, I was curious to see what the “Simpsonized” version of me would look like. The verdict? I couldn’t find the right hair, but it’s not too bad. Thoughts?
For your very own, go here.
